Wednesday, September 7, 2011

i of vi: Faith in the midst of continued questions

3/7/09...Father, I must say, Your ways continue to be mysterious to me. With knowledge comes pain, and I sometimes wish this was not a spiritual pursuit You bestowed upon me. Truly, I hope it will decrease over time instead of increasing.

Here is my latest pursuit; the origins of religion. Father I was never taught the origins of my religion in any depth. My only teaching was from a pulpit of a religion that condemned all Catholics and either judged or mildly condemned factions of Protestants.

I wonder if the tribulations I have faced with religion would have been avoided if I was taught the history of religion in Sunday School. But then again, I think it would have been colored by the perspective of the teacher and who knows how much more harm that could have caused. So in my quest to try and help my son, I have delved into religious history and Father I am not at all happy with some of the discovery. My eyes are opening, or You are opening my eyes, not sure which, and in the end I am left only with my “faith” in You, and a realization that I have to let go of the need to know.

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