They Are Broken, Just Like Me

01/29/12…In Matthew 10, Jesus said, “Therefore whoever confesses Me before men, him I will also confess before My Father who is in heaven. But whoever denies Me before men, him I will also deny before My Father who is in heaven. Do not think I came to bring peace on earth. I did not come to bring peace but a sword. For I have come to set a man against his father, a daughter against her mother, and a daughter-in-law against her mother-in-law; and a man’s enemies will be those of his own household.”

Jesus goes even further, into the utter depths of our souls, to confront what it means to follow Him, “He who loves father or mother more than Me is not worthy of Me. And he who loves son or daughter more than Me in not worthy of Me. And he who does not take his cross and follow after Me is not worthy of Me. He who finds his life will lose it, and he who loses his life for My sake will find it.”

This passage continues to both haunt me and exhilarate me. Spiritually, I find these words continually challenging me in my walk. It is because of these words that I cannot share some recent entries from my writings in October of 2009. If I did, it would only cause unintentional hurt because as I have found out, even though I sincerely want to honor my Father with my written words, sometimes unintended hurt occurs.

What happened? Well, it was something that struck me deep in the core of my soul. I am just now beginning to crawl out of a pit so deep I sometimes wondered if I could ever find the light. How do I weigh the impact of a spiritual wounding? I am not sure. What I do know is two years later, I am only beginning to rise once again, albeit tentatively and with a little trepidation.

I also know this; they are broken just like me.

Note: To you the reader, I apologize for leaving part of my story out. It is with honesty that I post entries from my walk in order to help others, that is if God so wills. However sometimes I believe discernment is the order of the day. In this case I hope I am right, although I am not sure I am.

I could have just skipped over this season and continued posting. However, I felt I owed you as the reader some explanation before continuing my postings because everything from this time on is affected by what happened to me. Wounding takes time to heal, and healing as well as forgiveness only comes by the grace of God.

So now begins the process.